the emptiness inside me

Friday, April 28, 2006

n d mid year exams are here again..time flies so freaking fast tht i din even notice..! n today we had our english paper 1 n social studies. it was nt too bad i guess..only tht i dun think i'll do vr well 4 SS coz my SBQ skills deteriorated drastically d moment i looked @ d paper. okay, let's just say i went blur all of a sudden...=p

and for my english....i think i just wrote too much..n i dun even hav time to count d number of words..! i finished lyk, 10 mins just b4 d time's up..n i guess whoever marks my paper is so unlucky. i literally blotched my paper..lol. wad with all d crosses, cancellations...*sigh*
my personal recount...hope i'm not out of point...

n i almost 4got 2 wish everyone all d best 4 their papers! may all of us study, study and study till we die ;) lol....

that's it 4 today...cyer bloggie!

p.s : say "arrghhhh...!!" to my mid year art prep work...i barely even started..!!

8:19 PM

Sunday, April 23, 2006

hmm..actually i dun reali have d mood to blog, but it's been eons since my very last post..
it feels sad to have that kind of thoughts..
maybe you are just not the one for me..

*sigh*...
hmm..wad else to write??
oh yeah i'm on d brink of depression..everything's freaking me out. i still have d preparatory work 4 art, due lyk, 2 weeks frm now...n nt forgetting d mid year exams round d corner..
*a deep long sigh*

well ytd went 4 Akina's Sweet 17.. was quite fun actually, but me n Hai Shi din reali bcum d emcee..lol..we were replaced by Jasper, d ex-Contemporary Dance teacher..he was, okay, quite wild..first he got Wilson to sit bside Akina n asked her whether she knows him very well..then he blindfolded her n brought out 4 guys - Adit, Raymond, Charles n Yam [is tis d correct spelling?] silently. add on Wilson n u've got 5 guys out dere. then, Jasper guided Akina to touch several different parts of d guys to find out which one is Wilson..

omg. seeing the guys' faces when their ears, nape of d neck, legs etc was touched was soo funny...hahaha..floren should hav seen dem..lol

still wif Akina blindfolded, Handoko was called out as well n then he n Wilson had a mutual exchange - Handoko exchanged his cap for Wilson's Jacket and vice versa. Handoko was quite reluctant to take off his cap for some reason..but when he did, turned out he had messed his hair during a recent haircut..lol. he was covering it d whole time..

then Akina was asked to guess out which one is Wilson agn..which eventually she did, n yeah d whole game's over..nt forgetting d whole '17 candles' thing..it was quite smooth actually, xcept tht we sang d happy birthday song twice..n some of our candles just kept on getting blown off..lol. but it was fine..hehehe

oh ya...her birthday cake was so gigantic..lol..n vr vr delicious too. i ate two pieces :))
no offence! i'm a chocoholic, remember?? n this one had so much choco tht i couldn't resist..hehehe

went home @ 11.30..when i got home i was so freakin tired n aft washing up, i fell asleep almost instantly..then woke up @ 1.30pm wif a pair of bloodshot n sore eyes..wad on earth??!
i tink it's bcoz aft removing my contacts ytd i jux fell asleep..*sigh*

so cyer bloggie!

1:35 PM

Friday, April 14, 2006

now as i'm listening to 'Hero' by Mariah Carey, i'm recallin d events tht happened during d 3-day Adam Khoo workshop..lol

1st day....

went 2 Temasek Room n combined wif 3C n 3E 4 d thing..then our musicman, Chuan Lay, briefed us 4 awhile b4 we met our trainer, Danny..who has such a goofy face tht u can jux laugh lookin @ him..[well to me tht is] lol..n his actions r really vr vr funny..hahaha. anyways, i realised tht d trainers r infused with a just-nice combination of fun n sense of humour! they never failed to make us laugh every minute wif their extremely lame actions n words..hahaha. aftwards we met d other trainers, Amin[ah] =p n Wayne..btw Wayne look so much like Robin! literally..! lookin @ him makes me think tht i'm lookin @ d grown-up version of him..lol..n one more thing, Amin was so fat in d past, but look @ him now? i think he looked a tad lyk a Western coz of his fair skin, but when u look more carefully, he speaks lyk a Malay, n d guys sed tht he looked lyk monkey..lol
he's actually a mix of Chinese-Malay descend..

btwn Amin's section, got called up 4 Councillors' Meeting...grr..received our Councillors' Tee, which, i admit, is nt up 2 my taste..it's soo plain! =(
aft everything is done,went back 2 TR 2 continue d program..

1st day almost did nothing in particular..jux got warmed up 2 d whole program n several theories 2 note down..hmm..
[this is bcoz i almost 4got wad happened during d 1st day! hahaha...sowiee...]

2nd day...

Amin started d day..by playin a game, in which our grp lost n led to d 'Are You Hot??' game..Mani,Sharan n Ashvin was asked 2 go up 2 d front n dance to 3 different songs respectively..it was damn funny! Mani jux messed arnd wif a chair 4 all 3 songs, Sharan was moving like a maniac n Ashvin's version of Macarena was hilarious coz he was onli cupping his ears n waist n no other..hahaha..
in d end Sharan was voted d 'hottest' n he was given 3 more challengers, who were Eric, Wen Bing n another guy [i 4got!] ..WB was okay i guess, but he lack of variety in his moves..while Eric was fussy tht he asked 4 Toxic 4 him 2 dance! lol..n his dance was..erm...very sexy..hahaha..i admit he was vr brave 2 go up n dance tht kind of dance..n i got him on camera! lol..

well l8er on in d aftnoon we had this section where we sang Mariah Carey's 'Hero' together n aftwards, we were s'possed 2 visualize bout our parents..b4 tht, Danny was shouting @ us, saying he was pissed coz we din appreciate our parents..of coz all of us got an instant scare..during d emotional session, almost all of us were crying [okay, i admit i cried!] n d guy bhind me was so emotional n cried so loud tht i was afraid he will jux collapse anytime..lol.aft d session we listened 2 a song entitled 'Child'..d lyrics r magical! n vr touching..='(
it reali shows how much a parent would go 4 d benefit of his/her child..
aftwards we hugged each other..i hugged Enjun, Raihana, Syahirah, Yessy, Ira, Thanawan...n maybe some more which i havent mentioned, but i love them all! =)
then we were asked 2 write a letter 2 our parents saying sorry 4 wad i hav done wrong 2 dem, n appreciating dem..n finally, sayin 'i love you' to them..

man, i tell u, aft this session, i really really love my whole family..i'm callin mummy n daddy l8er..=D

well we learnt bout super memory n other stuff, but lets jux move on 2 d 3rd day..

3rd day...

last day of d workshop! had enjoyed ourselves so much..hehehe..time flies when we r enjoying! o well...d only significance of this day is during d closing ceremony..sum of d students gave speeches dedicated mostly 2 their parents or wad they feel b4 n aft d workshop..okay, dere were lots of tears..[even floren,sharan,haikal cried!] n huggings...we sang a song entitled 'If We Hold On Together' by Diana Ross [listening to it now! ^^] together in d hall, n then @ arnd 9.30 we went home..
n btw i received quite a few appreciation cards..from floren,sharan,haikal,enjun,weiling,yessy,thanawan, n huda...thx a lot, ppl!

i agree it was d most memorable workshop i ever had...would reali wanna hav it agn bt i doubt we can..lol. well, all good things must come to an end..and all i can do now is to be thankful tht i was given d chance to attend this workshop..

such a long post, hehe...cyer bloggie!

4:12 PM

Saturday, April 08, 2006

everyone alert, new post! hahax...another week has rolled by, n Speech Day 2006's over...=( oh well, been having fun rehearsing 4 d event n performing, so i'm lookin forward 2 nxt yr's Speech Day again, n also SYF! woot..! =p

hmm..today's jiayin's b'dae! me,jiayin,yan jie, enjun n weiling went 2 Orchard 2 celebrate it together..we started @ 10 sth n met up in school..aft tht went straight 2 d K-Box @ Cineleisure n sang our hearts out literally..lol..had Fish n' Chips as lunch n stayed dere til 2pm..hahaha..guess we're addicted 2 d mikes..*wink*

then we set off 2 Heeren n walked arnd a bit. actually went dere 2 look 4 Mini Toons, but thanks to Ms. Picky-Picky Nicke, we walked out of tht place wif only a comb n candy flosses 4 each of us [they're givin dem free outside Heeren]

headed straight 4 Centrepoint 2 eat @ Pizza Hut n then boom! Cleve Yeo appeared! well, actually d gals invited him n thus he joined us [duh?!] it's pretty funny coz initially he got mixed up wif d places n all tht..when he arrived d whole table shook coz of our gigantic laughters..lol. we spent $70 sth dere..=p

then walked arnd a bit in Centrepoint...bought a Cookies n Cream Cheesecake 4 jiayin..n we shared it..it's very nice! n extremely creamy..hahaha
in d end we din finish it..aww..too bad..=( but we were oready quite full btw..
btw when we were eating d cake Kaiwit appeared as well..haha..i was like, "huh? i tot u r grounded?" hehee..bt turned out he's no longer being grounded..lol

well aftwards we went home..it was a great day! n to mention tht we spent a lot 2dae..lol..but it's okay 2 celebrate! hahaha...

so cyer next time bloggie! ^___^

11:54 PM

Sunday, April 02, 2006

hey
talk to me
don't play me with your silence
whisper it in my mouth
-Marion Raven, End of Me

i'm sick of everything now..! sum ppl's attitude, rehearsals, school, tuitions..even food, lol..
i dunno y these days i always feel nauseous aft eating..hahahaha
n fer gawd's sake ppl, i am NOT pregnant! grrr..stop saying tht..

ytd was a gr8 day..went out wif jiayin 2 bugis village n had our appointment @ Amore..they plucked my eyebrows! ouch! =x n ate some tom yam soup which was so extra super damn hot n spicy tht d two of us cant finish it..hahaha

but then..when i got home..

i was hanging arnd @ marshies' house wen suddenly mummy called me on my fone, n started sobbing in dere. i was literally shocked of coz, then she told me grandma passed away..n i was like, "what??"
i tot it was a joke, but turned out it wasn't..
n then i asked her whetha i shuld go back. actually she wants me to, but when i asked daddy, he sed dere's no need 2, cuz it'll b a hassle 2 fetch me frm Jakarta n stuff..

OMG, this is the worst April Fool's joke i've ever gotten...='(

now everyone in d family's stressed out. i've absolutely lost my mood 2 study 4 my maths CT tomorrow, n i certainly dun feel like playing jealous games nemore [well, at least 4 now!]

i guess thts all ima write 4 now..i'm too mixed up 2 think of anything else now..!
so cyer arnd bloggie....

___*It broke our hearts to lose you, but you did not go alone.
For part of us went with you on the day God called you home *___

12:57 PM